hahaha.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

ATTENTION!!!!

To my regular readers. I am no longer blogging here. Ive switched to LJ instead. So read it there, ok!

http://thepiebaker.livejournal.com/

Have the greatest day.

Monday, July 2, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

THE SOVIETS.

Ive worked two jobs before and neither of it has got to do with non-pleasing people or "customer is always wrong" motto. In fact my current job is way out of hand, if ure not certified to manage it on your own. I consider myself average.

Looking at mean people is normal. Looking at a mean Russian is weird. But looking at a mean Russian family who is also a VIP of the whole bloody hotel is friggin scary. And they patronised our spa like an army. Yeah. Theyre russian, we're singaporean. We speak english, they speak mostly of their language.

He(Russian dad) went through the glass door half naked,

with hair all over the body,

which somehow suits his unlikely to be friendly feature,

"hmmm Bolokov jfkajifnjk?"

"hm mai ippointment whoot taim?

and he looked and stare. And i stared back at him. Awoken by the long pause, i realised that i was suppose to serve him, I told him i didnt get what he was trying to say. And he stared again. And i search for his bloody name on the appointment sheet. Trying to communicate with him that way, so that neither of us will have to feel bad or feel mean. And he started looking at the surrounding except the sheet. And when i finally ask wether the name im pointing was his, he looked and stared again and started asking:

"JKHAJK WHOOT TAIM?"
"Your appointment is at 6pm sir.
"HMM ZHER HOO MENY PIPOUL?"
"Your coming alone at 6pm for foot therapy."
"LKHJKHF NO NO NO!"
"Well it says here on the sheet. Massage your leg."
"KNDOAJ NO THREE THREE."
"Yes i understand sir, three people booked and appointment.
Yours is at 6pm. Your wife and kid will be at 8pm."
"????????"
"Come back in an hour time. You can have a swim while waiting.
"kjlkHJLK HOO MENI PIPOUL??!"

I paused and decided to point it at him again.

"HMKN DJOU YOU INDERSTAND WHOOT AIM SEYING?
hahahahahhahahahahahhaahah.
WHAT THE HELL!!

Have the greatest day.

Sunday, July 1, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

I am desperately in need of pain killers.
Help.

Have the greatest day.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

THE COME BACK.

Just like when you exercise regularly and you finally stopped doing it all of a sudden, you tend to feel lethargic to start exercising again. Ive stopped blogging for a while. A few days perhaps. No updates. No news. No interesting stories to tell. And im feeling very lazy now. My fingers are typing so slowly, I could even manage to complete updating this post without a single spelling/gramatical error.

So people, people. Welcome me back.

At this very moment, I have finally managed to confidently attempt in announcing that, I am currently a happy woman and Ive been working hard to be a good daughter, sister, girlfriend, friend, worker and citizen.

So bare that in mind people.

Have the greatest day.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

MANGKOK.

"i want to go swimming in the water!" its called swimming pool idiot. That seriously cracks me up. From the moment i pushed the hold button. Until now.

The new school suck big time. It occupies a huge amount of land and to only find the entrance, it took me approximately 25 minutes. OMG KAN?! I was sweating all over, especially my armpit. And i became very exhausted afterwards. I couldnt find my way to the nearest MRT station and i ended up being in Little India. The Indians were friendly and i was even more friendlier.

I didnt know why i suddenly got all excited and enthusiatic to meet him at town, despite feeling worn out. I just dont know why. So stop wasting youre time wondering. I guess because we both had the perfect amount of money to watch a movie: Transformers.

So yessah! He loved my hair. My BLACK HAIR. And so our journey to Westmall was happy as ever. Just as we arrived there,

TRANSFOMERS: OPENS 28TH JULY.

(ADVANCE BOOKING ACCEPTED.)

Have the greatest day.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

WET TUESDAY.

Its currently 12:57am on a tuesday morning and its rainning heavily outside. I am feeling very stuffy in my room right this moment, coz i had to close my room window to prevent the raindrops from splaterring in. Everyone's asleep. Im left alone.

Waiting for him to call.

(replying to my private messages will be good enough.)

I spent my day cleaning up and cooking at home. Lazed around after that. Until my mom brought back a bottle of black hair dye from my aunt. Well she bought that for her daughter, my cousin, actually. And she asked me to cover up the unhealthy hair of mine to make it look healthy again. wtf. hahaha. and so now i have a black hair. No more green and yellow and brown and black with split ends.

Its now, 1:15am.

And my phone is still not ringing.

Have the greatest day.

Monday, June 25, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

EXPENSIVE MONDAY.
ok so i woke up a few moments ago, feeling oh so drowsy. I was working the day before and i had to wake up when everyones enjoying their sleep on a Sunday morning.I normally work on weekends. I dont, sometimes and thats when they found someone else to replace me. My tummy is singing oprah again. This time, it hurts. Its not like i dont cook. I do. But without ingredients u cant do anything. I can buy, but if there isnt any penny, I cant even urinate in a public toilet.

So ive already planned my day today. Im gonna stay at home. He is working at 4pm and i have noone to go out with. My friends, ive been going out with them the most last week and im sure they need to take time off at home like i do. And besides, i miss my family.

I am a family oriented person.
My family (including my other aunties/uncles and cousins and grandmother) will never fail to get together on most public holidays. We will go out camping, barbecueing, chalets, vacation. Whatever. And we will get drunk and be happy. No im kidding. We will totally have much fun. I wonder how he's going to adapt to my family later on and vice versa. Trust me, we're two different people leading different lives.
But im still gonna love him.

Mom just arrived home from work.
She must be really exhausted.
Im gonna start cleaning up the house now, before she roars.
Haha.

Have the greatest day.

Friday, June 22, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

TOWN ESPLANADE TOWN ESPLANADE.

It is high time we kick Saturday Blues. Im fucking sick and tired of the same places we normally go on weekends. It can never be different. It is simply boring and i hate going home feeling unsatisfied about the whole bloody saturday. Because i know that there are other interesting places we have yet to explore. I find it seriously lame sitting at esplanade every saturday, conquered by human traffic. And it makes me regret for not opting for work on saturdays. Im avoiding myself from feeling that way. So please. Crack your head and think.

* Especially calling out to the people of VL. For god sakes. Go somewhere else people. Arent you guys tired of doing the same ol thing and going to the same ol place? Come on.

-We can laugh hard and talk crap at any other places besides boring esplanade.
-We can exercise together while ice skating.
-We can throw popcorns and masturbate secretly in the movie theatre.
-We can be king/queen pins at the bowling arena.
-We can get scared and see each other's stupid faces at haunted abandoned places.
-We can shout and scream together at theme parks.
-We can see how we resemble to the animals at the zoo.
-We can discover more flying objects at the Bird Park.
-We can plan a picnic or shoot a film at the Botanical Gardens.
-We can paddle our rented bicycle at East Coast Park.

___PENDING IDEAS OF ACTIVITIES___
so stay tuned.

Tomorrow is Saturday. Im really hoping hard.

Have the greatest day.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

MY PIECE.

Fuck whoevers bothering you.

Fuck what theyre gonna say or think.

Coz u know urself better than anyone else.

You should be happy u dont have anybody by ure side.

Coz the only one who will be there for you is yourself.

Start listening to her and stop trusting them.

Be strong. Be wise.

Ure a beautiful woman.

Guys go chasing and they'll return.

But you'll be the one deciding.

love you babe.

*Especially dedicated to Lilyn.

Disallow them to bring you down.

I gave in.

And i regretted.

Have the greatest day.

everybody should hate everybody.

CUFFS, GUNS & RECEPTION COUNTERS.

I woke him up at 9:50am this morning.

He had an appointment at the Traffic Police Headquarters. So i had to follow him there. I took a long bath, trying to freshen myself up completely. But i ended up yawning countless of times and still feeling very sleepy. I couldnt care less, coz he might be arriving here anytime. It makes me worried to be late. But yet, i still ended up waiting. I coulnt be furious eventhough i wanted to, coz im already used to it soo much which has made me very lazy to even care. So there he was 10 minutes after i arrived, smilling away.

"Good Morning, Darling!" Hahaha. Yeah, i melted.

Road traffic was a killer in the cool breezy morning. Upon reaching our destination. There were numorous malay police officers, in their petrol vehicles, guarding the gates, even in the reception counter, answering phone calls. I suppose they were guaranteed a job after serving the country. That explains why.

Channel news asia was showed on the tv screen, with the least amount of volume. And having had a problem with my hearing, I could here nothing. And i was just trying so hard to understand what theyre trying to potray. So i waited for him outside. While having my ears enjoying "louder" sounds from his MP3. Which i could hear.

I didnt quite enjoy what i was listening too, coz my tummy were mixing melody with the beat of the music. Yeah. The Beat of Hunger. It didnt make my head go back and forth. Instead, spinning and shuffling, to the verge of vomitting. I held myself up and stayed strong.

Hahahaha. kental.

Sipping the chicken soup was the last thing i did, before finishing up my soya bean milk. And his plate of left grain of rice had already long cooled before i even swallowed the last spoon of rice. I felt very sleepy after that, but i still wanted to go somewhere else with him. I wasnt insisting, but just hoping that he might want to do the same thing too.

We'll he didnt.

He was obviously too sleepy.

I stayed home all day after that.

And i enjoyed it.

Have the greatest day.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

THE WOMAN.

She caught my attention, when i was nicely dreaming in the train. Everyone seemed to be distracted by her. She stood by the pole and her dressing was somewhat messy. Her hair was unruly with tucked out sleeveless shirt and a short black bermudas. Wearing a pair of dirty slippers, she was holding her standard ticket card together with her cellphone and a lighter.

She was about to sit, and she gave it up to a man, instead. I was hoping very much that she will not sit next to me. And i continued observing her. A few more seconds for the train to stop at Outram Park, a man beside me got up. That was when my hope didnt actually come true.

(Dont ever hope for something you dont want it to happen. Coz there will be 99.99% chances that it will!) She came and sat beside me. I didnt know why i was being so scared and worried about this whole sitting situation.

And so everything was stationary. Except for my eye which was trying its best to observe even more, without her noticing. There was a brown stain on her right leg, almost reaching her ankle. It seemed all dried up. I was thinking to myself what it might be. And i seriously thought it was shit.

Maybe mud? Maybe chocolate? But come to think of it, it wasnt rainning at all, today and its not possible to have chocolate stains on your leg. Unless u eat with it.

So i seriously think it was shit. But the best part was, It didnt smell bad at all.

Have the greatest day.

everybody should hate everybody.

I had a rough afternoon.

And im feeling very weak now.

Exhausted too.

He called me many times today,

after that saddening incident occured.

I only answered twice. We didnt end up going out today, due to some issues we had. And because of that, ive realise that i need to take a rest and start thinking straight. I hate crying. I hate quarelling.

I just want to be very happy.

With my family. My friends. And expecially, with him.

Its not that i dont love him anymore.

Its because i love him soo much, which has really made me emotionally upset, whenever i face dissapointment from him.

He was right.

I just need to start hanging out more with my friends now.

So despite all the bumps ive gone through today.

I went out with my two beloved friends.

Laney and Suriatie.

I met them at Jurong East MRT

and we headed to town together.

We didnt do anything much today,

but just hang around and talk.

About everything. I wasnt feeling too well and was merely distracted by all the things around me. We finally ended up sipping tea at arab street. Well that was me. Both of them bought a glass of iced milo each.

And started talking again. We felt drowsy and dreamy and lazy after that.

All of us ended up going home.

So that was my day today.

A very challenging one i must say.

*We will eat ice-kachang one day k sayang.

Have the greatest day.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

BACK FROM THE SICK BAY.

I have been a very bad daughter.

I have been an irresponsible sister.

I have been rude and selfish.

I have not been listening well.

I have been stubborn and egoistic.

And stingy as well.

I have not been praying alot lately.

And i cant seemed to focus and get everything right.

I really need to start listening.

And be stress free by night.

I will get aggrevated when being provoked.

I will be called names when i does things wrong.

I will start vulgaring when im angry.

And be unhappy all day long.

Fuck the people.

Fuck their opinions.

What matters the most now.

Are my loved ones.

Start cherishing them before they're gone.

Treasure the moments, dont trash it in.

One day, u'll realise.

It wont be for long.

Have the greatest day.

Monday, June 18, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

NIGHT SHIFT.

There are seven rooms. Three separate corners. A pantry. The reception area and a big store room at the back.

And it was 11:16pm, when noone else is going for a swim,or the gym. The gym was already locked and the people working there has gone home. And i was left all alone in the whole level. Waiting for my collegue, who was doing room service for hotel guests. The CD player stopped and silence was present. My heart was beating vigorously. My hair standing tall. I started to be all jittery. And i finally decided to wait outside. I couldnt stand the silence. And i was afraid to go to the other corner to Play the music.

There were huge mirrors at the reception area. Which enables me to see the whole stretched of rooms inside. I chose not to look at it and i felt very very uncomfortable. I tried calling Laney, but her line was engaged. I wanted to occupy myself with something less eerie. But it didnt happen.

When i was outside. I stood right in front of the spa entrance, purposely leaving the glass door ajar. And lightning started conquering the sky. And that really sets up the whole eerie vibe of the whole surrounding.

Which was damn fucked up.

Then i looked inside, the white curtain of the pantry was moving slowly. And it looks like as if theres a white figure appearing there for a moment .

I have a very wild imagination, which is a disadvantage for me.

And i know that im sounding like a 5 year old kid. But i admit, i was really really terrified.

For the first time at work.

They normally lock the glass door at 11.30pm. And they will send someone to petrol the whole area to check wether theres still people around the vicinity. And it was 11:35pm when the man arrived. I finally felt relieved. For awhile. And then he's gone.

She arrived at the spa 10minutes later. By that time, Din was already calling me, ready to fetch me home.

Finally, i dont have to wait!

And sit by the entrance curb

like an old retard.

That was the reason why i stayed at the spa.

To kill time so that i could escape from waiting.

Obviously.

I ended up scaring myself.

What the fak.

Have the greatest day.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

WELLINGTON WEEKEND.

For the 2nd time of the week, I went to catch a movie, yet again.

With my mataer.

Fantastic Four: The Rise of The Silver Surfer.

They were hot.

But Jessica Alba, was the hottest.

And i was almost on the verge of having frost bites.

The cinema, was extremely cold.

It was unbearable.

Din seemed to really enjoy every bit of the moment.

I did too.

Minusing out the -0 degree celcius.

Headed to Queensway to shop.

For his stuff.

Actually, we were suppose to do it together, as planned.

But i already bought mine the day before, with Laney.

So yeah, he was quite angry about that.

But what the heck.

He got a pair of shoe to bring home.

I seriously hate rainny days.

But it rainned last night.

So it was bad.

That surprisingly explained why everyone were rushing towards the exit.

Like cows.

And we were both wondering why why why.

until we realised that it was pouring outside.

HAHAHA

Suddenly the whole place seemed

Anti- Human.

And weird things seemed to be more weirder.

The ride was

wet and uncomfortable.

We shivered along the way.

Aku sayang kau lah.

Jangan risau.

Goodnight.

Have the greatest day.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

CURLY.

I dont have bestfriends. I prefer not to have any.

But to have Laney by my side, is a total blessing.

I love you, babe.

*Your hair brought me to you.

Please dont do anything else with it.

Dont ask me what im doing.

Its obvious.

that im begging.

Have the greatest day.

everybody should hate everybody.

THE USUAL SUSPECTS.

Fashion Party at MOS 07.

Bryan, Mat, Mastura and me.

The usual people, with the usual deeds.

Chacha at Jakarta.

Adeeb missing.

The rest who were suppose to come, didnt.

It was sad, you guys werent there.

Coz we had a hell of a good time.

Have the greatest day.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

NIGHT SHIFT.

He's working again tomorrow! and theres an event going on at MOS. The Fashion Party my friends told me about. And i know he wants to come along too. But he couldnt. Damn. Im dying to go with him. But too damn bloody bad, he's not.

And i dont club. I wouldnt be going in, if its not because of an event being held.

Have the greatest day.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

Ok she changed her mind. Anyone, wanna go out with me?

Have the greatest day.

everybody should hate everybody.

Ive tried contacting all my friends. But none of them are able to be reached. Well, except for one. And im meeting her later at Choa Chu Kang. Its been ages since we last went out. Last year maybe? And shes been asking me alot of times before about, our meet up sessions! and that i ve been really busy before. Now, ive finally have the chance. And shes bringing along Azura!! hahaha i miss her too. The three of us have been friends eversince 2-3 yrs ago. Power.

Orange is working. Hes been working hard for the past four days. And im not able to meet him up. I miss him like fuck. And the large cups of mashed potatoes he gave me on sunday, is still in the fridge.

Only left with one.

My mom ate the rest.

Ive only received half of my pay last month. And im seriously in need of money. And theyre delaying it even more. Those Muthafuckers. Im very angry right now. Coz i need more jeans. And im going to buy Diana, my litle sister, a pair of jeans too!!! Damn. Im seriously very angry ok!!!!

Have the greatest day.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

LOVE SHIT.

He finally sent me this picture last night, which ive totally forgotten about.

We've got a long way to go.

Babi Bergonjeng vs Buddha Berendam.

Have the greatest day.

everybody should hate everybody.

WHEN MARY MEETS NISA.

Today was the first day of the week and the day when we left our boyfriends behind. And plus, movie tickets were sold cheap. We bought two, for me and my gf, nisa and a huge bucket of popcorn. And it ended up to be too sweet for us to handle. And then Ocean's 13 th was showed on the screen. A two hour movie which left us with nothing but satisfaction. A great show indeed. Eventhough i didnt catch the previous ones. Our day wasnt planned at all, but it went smoothly.

So i received 3 missed calls. Laney, home and surprisingly, my beloved boyfriend. But i didnt call him back. Something which i did purposely. But i enjoyed it actually. Looking at the fact that he is actually trying to know where i am. And then he called me again. Then again, i ignored. Sorry bapsy. HAHAHAHA. For the 3rd time, i picked up.

So he didnt bring my helmet along wit him, that meant i went back home by myself. it was a great moment out of the house.

k dah.

Have the greatest day.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

THE CRYING BITCH.

I had to cry like fuck to ask him out. He seems to be somewhat reluctant to do so. I dont know why, but im totally prepared to find out.

So first things first, Yes we went out today. Finally. Without his bike, and with his friends. I was simply broke and i had enough for only a standard card to go and in need of 20 cents more to go back. We ate at BK to fill up our empty stomach. And we went out from there with a bloody huge one. So that explains it all. We combed for CDS at HMV. But didnt actually buy one. And along the way, met friends and exchanged HI'S AND HELLO'S. and plain ol' smiles. Like i said, ive only had enough money to go back and i cant use it for anything else. At all. So we walked to City Hall. And played crap verbal games along the way. Kept rather quite after a few moments after that coz i began to feel thirsty. Remember, both of us had no money left for a drink. So things started to go a lil rigid. And then came the DBS atm machine! Checked our cards and transfer some bucks to his. and VOILA! Bought 2 bottle of drinks for only $2.

Problem solved.

But it started to bore me when we arrived at Esplanade. Which is now a hang out place for MOST youths in Singapore(on weekends).

So yadayadayada.

Shout, scream,laugh,talk,more laughter.

My head spinning, my eyes rolling.

and then we headed home.

catched the last train.

and GOODNIGHT.

Have the greatest day.

Friday, June 8, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

GERMAN BRIDGE.

I have not been blogging often lately. And im becoming more lazy. Results were released and i got through. So did my classmates. Most of them. I have approximately 2 and a half months left before school starts and so far ive only managed to get the loan from mendaki to settle the rather expensive school fees. As usual, im not working most of the days, which means, i wont be expecting a huge amount of money. And that is why im in desperate need for another job! So June is here. And im getting to meet many people from the past. More friends perhaps. Even that, im still diagnosed with bore disease.

I have been with my dear boyfriend for 2 years now. And i realised we're getting too comfortable with each other. I wouldnt say that it is a bad thing. Neither will i say it is a good one either. So anyways, people change. We change. And there are alot of changes in this relationship which somehow or rather really challenged me. Its hard. I wont lie. Very hard, to be precised. Ive shed many tears, and moments of madness which i couldnt possibly describe the massiveness of the situation. But i know my boyfriend is trying hard as well to commit in this relationship. I can easily admit that i am a very annoying and egoistic person. Thats the truth. So its gonna be damn hard for us to settle our problems decently, coz he's like that too. Anyways, whatever happens. I know, he is always there for me and that he loves me. Eventhough his beloved friends are very important to him as well. I mean they are the blood which is running down his veins. He'll die if they're gone. HAHAHA. And ive learnt not to love him so much.

*So people. Thanks for reading. And i dont care if you dont. Have the greatest day. ENJOY.

Have the greatest day.

Monday, May 28, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

NOBODY HATES CHICKEN! ESPECIALLY CHICKEN WITH HOT DRESSING!

IVE TRIED THIS. YOU SHOULD TOO, PEOPLE.

KALAU TAK RUGI.

Buttermilk Fried Chicken Recipe.

Ingredients:

2 cups buttermilk

1 large onion, sliced

1/4 cup chopped mixed fresh herbs (parsley,tarragon,thyme)

a teaspoon each of the dried herbs.

1/2 teaspoon paprika

1/2 teaspoon cayenne pepper

(u can get these ingredients frm any supermarket.)

2 cups flour

(rice flour mostly preferred.)

1/2 teaspoon garlic salt

1/2 teaspoon onion salt

1 teaspoon cayenne pepper

salt and pepper

2 cups grapeseed oil

(but i used olive oil, i dont care.)

Method:

1. Soak chicken overnight for at least 8 hrs. ( but im a very impatient person. so i just waited for like an hour! For better results, follow the correct instructions.) Mix it together with the buttermilk with onions+herbs+paprika+cayenne pepper.

(instead of buttermilk. i tried using normal yoghurt. i didnt know where to find it. and it ended up nicely done.)

2.Drain in colander, leaving some herbs on chicken. Mix flour with seasonings. Heat 2 cups oil in a large, heavy-bottomed skillet ( something that can take the heat) on medium high heat until a pinch of flour starts to sizzle when dropped in the hot oil! (Not to hot lah unless u wanna look black and xtra crispy urself! hahaha.)

3. Place chicken pieces in the tray with flour and roll until its thoroughly coated. Add chicken to hot pan and fry on 1 side for 12-15 minutes, until golden brown. flip it to to the other side and wait for another 10-12 mins.

and then youre done!

can sapede already!

Have the greatest day.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

BORE BORE ISLAND.

i quarelled with mom. and i sense a strong possibility that this cold war is gonna be active for quite a while. a week. maybe more. hahahhaha. im already used to this shit. and i dont care anymore.

this holiday is really pissin me off. pls! i wanna go back to skool and suffer again. i dont wanna sit at home and rot. they dont need me at work dat often. so wad the bloody hell am i suppose to do now?

i just finish cleaning up the whole house. and i am feeling very satisfied with the cleanliness dat ive achieved. im chatting with my frend on msn now. and he thinks that he's a playboy. dats the most funniest and nonsensical thought ive ever heard.

and why would he worry too much, when he is single! for god sakes. pls.

HAHAAHHAHAHA.

ok im down with bore disease. so i couldnt quite think of sumthing to fill up my stupid entry.

u'll probably gonna say, "why dont u just stop here, god damn it!"

well its obvious that im entertainning my currently boring life with these. so i wouldnt wanna throw this life saving chance, in making myself useful.

GOBBLE! GOBBLE!

Pirates of the Carribean III is out in cinemas.

so wad? im broke. i cant go.

hahahahaha.

i love Johnny Depp. coz he's hot as hell

and fuck Orlando Bloom!

he's gay!

Have the greatest day.

everybody should hate everybody.

ELLIE.

we only knew each other for a day. And i realised i could be the one solely who could be nurturing her. i could take care of her without any doubts. i brushed her forehead letting her sleep to dream. and fed her milk avoiding hunger. she rolled and i tickled her tummy. she bit and scratched. and i still didnt bleed. she snugged and shivered in the piece of thick fabric. covering her little wide eyes with her small pink palms.

she wonders. she feel.

and she finally found comfort.

but later,

found herself lost. yet again.

Have the greatest day.

Saturday, April 28, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

MONYET MENGAJI.

i finally decided dat im gonna sleep in the living room tonite! my room looked uncomfortable today. and chacha just called me to ask me out tomorow! hahaahaha. assesments over and we're free like the pigeons in our skool canteen!! can shit anyhow, anywhere they want!!!! burung2 mcm cibai! i hate things dat flies! so yes. everyones complaining about how bored they are now. hahaha. i kinda miss those rough times and sleepless nights! but i wish not to repeat it again.

i reached home at about 11.30 pm just now. i went out wit orange and frens! and we were all as usual. crappy monkeys. we were all planning to watch dukun this cuming tues. and i hope it will happen. hahahaha.

we are both working tomorrow. and he's already asleep. and now im left alone. wad else can i say?? hmmm oh well im still loving orange. and of course he loves me too!!

goodnight kambing!

Have the greatest day.

Friday, April 27, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

NENEPOK BERJAMBOL!

so they took my pair of shoes and my 2D FINAL!!! i think its a good sign. some of my frens were being selected for their work too. and we stayed at the canteen and talk shit together. i laughed my brains out. and i actually enjoyed the rainny day just now. i donnoe why, but yeah. orange wasnt able to meet me at skool. he wasnt feeling too well dat day and we changed plans. i asked him to go back home straight instead.

and we wanted to go home, but didnt want too. coz of our fucking work. we could hardly carry all of our stuff back. initially i went to skool with chacha by cab! and we couldnt even climb up the stairs!!! so yeah i called my dad to fetch me. and i asked chacha along. and ruff over heard dat and he ask me wether he could cum along too!!! i felt bad for not inviting him. so yeah the 3 of us squeezed in the front sit with our skool work at the back!!!! hahahahahhaha

and surprisingly they enjoyed the whole trip on my dad's lorry! hahaha.

PS: i will post the picture of my artwork, once ive uploaded it. ok? ok!

dada~

Have the greatest day.

everybody should hate everybody.

TAIK MATE MELELER..

A few more hours to assesment!!!! and its almost 5 am now. its been days feeling very weird doing my shit by myself. i miss my bf. i miss my frens. i miss FUN. haiz............. im still doing my painting and i havent organise my work yet. my eyes are fucking heavy!!! and i cannot take it anymore. please help me God!

Have the greatest day.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

THE WOMAN IN RED.

i basically wasted my saturday. we didnt do much. we didnt bring much. we had to stay at the counter for ten minutes to settle our meal. and we werent having the perfect mood we expected to have yesterday.

ok a big BUT must always come by to ruin the whole thing rite? yes i did enjoyed very much having him with me. the only heads up for us. and i love him so much more. and blah blah blah! jazz house! hahhahaha i love jazz! coz down tempo music, makes me feel high, even with the abscence of alcohol. no need to have dat disturbing liquid around to drive the mood.

orange is in love with his bike. im jealous. coz he always brings her shopping.! and is very concern with her appearance and sex appeal. give her a gallon of drink when shes in thirst. (ok i have to pay half of dat.) wipe her with a clean cloth when shes crying. accesorise her when she needs it to beautify herself. speed up her hormones when shes horny. kiss her backside after every ride. haiz.....

im so jealous seh.

but at the end of the day. i'll stll get the most. hehehe.

now he has 3 women in his life.

mom,bike and me.

and i will be so fucking pissed if whoever tries to be his 4th!

so dont try me.

WRITE THAT DOWN.

Have the greatest day.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

**OK PEOPLE! WHOEVERS READING MY SHIT. I LL MAKE SURE U REALLY SMELL IT. COZ I KNOW SOMETIMES I BORE U WITH SOME STOOPID SHIT ASS COMPOS OR NOVELS. OK WADEVER U CALL IT. AND IM FUCKING SURE THERES OTHERS WITH WAYYY BETTER JOURNALS OR BLOGS THAN WAD I HAVE. HAHAHAHAHA. SO BARE WITH ME. IF U DONT LIKE IT TAG. IF U LIKE IT, CLAP! OK?! OK!

HEHEHEHOINK!

OK SO I LIKE TO DIG MY NOSE FOR TREASURE. I LIKE TO SMELL MY EARWAX WITH PLEASURE. I LIKE TO FART. AND I LOVE IT TO BE LOUD AND SMELLY. I BURP IN PUBLIC. I CANT HELP IT. IT'LL FORCE IT OUT OF ME MOUTH. AND PEOPLE THINKS IM WEIRD AND DISGUSTING. I DONT CARE. COZ IM COMFORTABLE BEING WHO I AM! SOMETIMES I LIKE TO TOUCH AND SELIT UNDER HIS ARMPIT, IT GIVES ME WARMTH AND COMFORT. IT GIVES ME JOY AND HAPPINESS. I TOOK A VIDEO OF MY CRAP AND IM PROUD OF IT. IM NOT IN FAVOUR OF CHOCOLATES. BUT I LOVE VANILLA. I HATE STRAWBERRIES. BUT I LIKE STRAWBERRY ICE CREAM. IM SCARED OF GHOST AND IM AFRAID TO GO TO THE KITCHEN AT NITE. I DONT SMOKE. I DONT DRINK. I DONT CLUB. BUT I LOVE TO BURN ADEEB'S HAIR! IM IRRITATINGLY EGOISTICAL. AND DATS WHY HE LOVES ME. COZ HE'S LIKE DAT TOO. I LOVE TO DRAW AND DANCE AND BAKE. AND I LIKE TO EAT. I LOVE CHICKEN AND BEEF. FISH WILL BE THE 2ND IN MY LIST. I HATE CURRY. I PREFER SOUP. I HATE COFFEE BUT IM ADDICTED TO TEA. AND NOW THE YEAR IS GONNA BE OVER, I'D BETTER SAY THIS BEFORE I END. MY SKOOLFRIENDS ARE THE ONES I LOVE. AND IM CRAZIER BECOS THEYRE CRAZY. AND WHEN IM CRAZY, HE'LL BE CRAZY OVER ME! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

GURAME~~~

Have the greatest day.

everybody should hate everybody.

GURAMEee~

ive not been having good nite sleeps lately. even if i do, i will tend to wake up in the afternoon! damn im like a bat now.this stupid assesment has been affecting people massively. and my fucking back has yet to recover! ive done only 50% of my work. and im becoming even more paranoid as days surpass. my external project is way out of hand. we havent even start a bit and it is a total waste of time! shit sia. and my contact lense solution finish already. so ive been putting it on dry........ for the past 3 days. i havent had a proper meal again! for a week, i think. i donnoe wads wrong with me nowadays. getting more shag and lifeless. but im still happy. hahahahaha.

my bf ask me out tomorrow. but before that, im going to chacha's house again. to finish up my powerpoint presentation. coz my fucking laptop doesnt have powerpoint! only the viewer! mepek sak. its been countless times ive been to her place. i dont noe why, but somehow, im able to concentrate very well over there.

dunia dunia.

Have the greatest day.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

POK AMAI AMAI BELALANG KUPU-KUPU.

im totally shag and exhausted. it has been a long day today. and i miss my bed.

*had breakfast with orange at bugis.

then to arab street and had teh katai. and he went for his solat jumaat.

it was rainning so fucking heavily. and we were both soaked. but journey on his bike went smoothly, despite the weather.

sent me to chacha's house. called her up to pass me a towel coz i dont wanna enter her home all wet. and it looks as if i just jumped into the pool with my clothes on.

*watch her friend perform at gas haus.

adeeb followed us. 5 bucks/person.

hardcore bands playing(not my cup of tea). kuping gue sudah mau pecah deh.

wasnt dat enjoyable. (adeeb seemed to enjoy it more than i do.) coz it wasnt my kinda music. but it was alrite.

BUT i totally did enjoyed going out with my people.

*go home time.

i met orange at bukit batok. and he sent me home from there.

i love him to the mah!

goodnite kambing!

Have the greatest day.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

AKU TAK TAHU APE NK TULIS PAT NI BLOG! TAPI AKU TAHU YNG AKU BOSAN NAK MAMPOS! AKU STRESS! AKU BINGIT!! PASAL SEKOLAH! DAN LAEN2 LAGI! AKU RASE DIER DAH BORING DENGAN AKU! DAH BOSAN TENGOK MUKER AKU! DAH MALAS NAK LAYAN AKU! AKU FAHAM! PASAL AKU TAHU AKU IRRITATING! KITER DH TAKLEH BEBUAL BAIK2 LAGI. KALAU ADE PON. SEKEJAP AJE! KENAPE DIER KENE BOHONG?! DIA LEBIH SUKER KLUAR NGAN KAWAN DIER. DIER JUMPE SETAKAT MAKAN LEPAK BALEK! SETIAP KALI KLUAR TAK TAHU NK GI MANE. DAH TAK SPONTANEOUS LAGI!

AKU RASE AKU NAK EXERCISE! PASAL DIER BENCI NGAN BABAT AKU DI DEPAN! AKU NAK KURUS KAN BADAN. BELI BAJU BARU! SELUAR BARU! APE2 YNG BARU! JADI DIER TAK BOSAN LAGI DGN AKU! JADI KALAU AKU SEXY! DIER TAKKAN TENGOK POMPAN LAEN LAGI! DIER TAKKAN KURANG AJAR NGAN AKU LAGI!

AKU BUKAN PSYCHO! AKU GILER! DAN AKU GEREK! ITU PASAL KAU NAK AKU DULU! PASAL AKU FAHAM KAU NYE MEPEK! PASAL KAU PON GILER! KITER SEDAWE KUAT2 SAME2! KITER KENTOT SAME2! TAPI AKU RASE AKU DAH TAK GILER2 LAGI MCM DULU! TU PASAL SKRG KAU DAH BORING NGAN AKU! HAHAHAHA AKU TAHU...NYEYI NYEYI PUPU!

KALAU MCM GITUK BIAR AKU TINGGAL KAU SORANG2 NGAN TEMAN SEJATI KAU. RASE KALAU AKU GI BALI NGAN CHACHA BUAT SATU MINGGU! KAU CARIK AKU BALEK TAK! KALAU TAK. AKU STAY SANE BUAT SELAME LAMENYE! SANTAI................ HAHAHAHA

Have the greatest day.

Sunday, April 8, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

MOS BERGER LEMAU

ive been working lately. i dont noe why suddenly my manager needed me to work. and i had to work 12 hrs on good friday!! at 2 bloody locations!!! i was seriously tired. and unfortunately he wasnt able to fetch me home. nvm its ok. coz he finishes at the same time as me, so i cant be bothered to wait for him. let him rest.

so yes he own a bike now. and i was happy. and he was happy. coz we finally have sumthing convenient bringing us back and forth. however, i have to play a part as a frequent pillion, to pay half of the oil! hahaha. its been three days we've been on his bike. and so far, no problem. the journey was rather smooth. alhamdullilah.

i just came back. from MOS, with laney! hahahahaha, i find dat plc rather irritating actually. ok i dont club. i only go to pubs and listen to jazz.. but bcos i wanna check out the ambient of the whole bloody place. since its free entry, i let myself in. for only 30 mins. and then we're gone. we didnt even dance. (except for 2 guys battling dance moves with each other from each corner! i donnoe wadever the name is called to decribe the dance lah!!! but yeah semangat nak mampos.) earlier on, laney sms me about this free entry thingy. so dat was how me and him got there.

i arrived home at 12:25am. feeling so worned out. and i just realised that i slept for a few mins, on our way back home, on his bike! and i told him wad happened. and yeah! he didnt want me to do dat again. it is dangerous. i know!

klah. goodnite kambing!

Have the greatest day.

Thursday, April 5, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

my back is killing me to death. almost. its still painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it hurts so bad! its been a month since i had it. and i m very worried bout myself. ive already been to the doctor. but now, its still the same. haiz..... i slept late yesterday coz i chatted with laney on the phone for hours. but orange didnt call me last nite. before that i had skool and the thing which ticks me off was that we had the wrong infomation bout our fashion project and im fucking stress up coz we had to do it again in acrylic! muthafuck. and all the illustrations we already did, wasnt wad they exepected us to do. and i had to fucking rethink again to get a new idea to go about the project. and i hate to think so hard. to get the perfect one to grab their attenton. we are only left with 2 bloody weeks to complete EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!! for the upcoming assesment week. and on top of that. we have to complete a group project at the same time! which is fucking huge! and im seriously gonna be so stressful and piss off and more and more moodswings!!! or yeah not forgetting sleepless nites!!!! ok, i usually sleep early. but dat'll start next week onwards.! hahahahahaha.

im starting skool at 2pm todae. and joanna called me this morning to ask me to come to work. so wad the heck. i' ll just go and get money so i can spend after assesment.!!!

ok and im gona ask him to fetch me later frm work, since he's hanging around with frens at town.

k bye kambing.

Have the greatest day.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

GIRLS NITE OUT.

it was a rather shocking, dissapointing and interesting day, i must say. it was both very good and very bad mix together= TODAY.! i wont post the bad news coz its for me to know.

i went out with siti ema bte sulaiman this evening. it was dead fun. girls are easy to make frens with. it was interesting how we met online on his msn account. she was related to my bf, used to noe him well last time. i kinda like provoke/confronted her at ferst. coz i was terrified bout bad things which may appear suddenly. and i felt guilty and bad. hahahhaha. but in the end we bacame frends. and we can fucking click so well.. ok when i met her the ferst time just now, i told her she dont look like a typical malay girl. but somehow or rather, she looks hawaiian to me. interesting features. and frendly and down to earth and outspoken. yeah that was her. hahaha. we ate at(rosegarden i think) coz its the most affordable most nicest stall ever in the entire far east plaza. and then headed to liat towers's starbux. wow we stayed for a long while and gossip!( bout chix and chickens.) it was so much fun.

that was the good news.

**and she was disgusted with the green tea frap w/ whip i ordered! hahhaa.

i appreciate her help and effort to get me out of my lost journey. and bcos of dat im strong now. thanks babe. luv ya!

Have the greatest day.

Monday, April 2, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

OK I LIKE THE BEACH.

my shoulder is biting. my skin is burning. and my eyesight is blurry. bought a 9.9o dark tanning spray and a peppermint shower gel for the trip today. i skipped skool. and i missed my presentation. we were suppose to go yesterday. but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i was xcited and speechless to describe the excitement. long time never go beach(pahlawan) with orange. so this was my 2nd. it was a perfect day. not much beach bums or dudes. we chose the most convenient spot which was near to both 7-11 and the jamban. so we kinda get a big space for us to lie down and do wadever under the hot glarry piece of orange light! yes the sun was killing, eventhough i didnt want it to rain. so i could barbeque my skin. felt awkward at ferst, wearing a bikini. hahahha but i got used to it. and he was hugging me so tightly suddenly, i donnoe why. so we bathed, tanned, eat and scrub our bodies with the sand. we felt shag after dat. i lost his sunglasses. and we didnt finish our food. its becos we hated the food and we cant wait to get into the sea. hahahaha..

no pictures to provide. apparently he didnt want me to show any of our pics there. haiz..... wow he owned me! hahahaha. wadever. we ate and had sugarcane(w/ lemon) drink at harbourfront kopi shop after that. and my food wasnt good either. well his was delicious. went back by taxi and he spent another 20 bucks. wtf! 21.50 to be precise. i used half my money for the fare instead... so i can give him his 10 bux back... coz i felt bad and guilty...

and my sayang, got even darker. ")

Have the greatest day.

Sunday, April 1, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

GUE MAU BERSANTAI DI PANTAI.

we didnt go to the beach. i ended up doing my skool work at home and he ended up working. it was such a great dissapointment for me. it was perfectly planned last week. but some shit will never give up appearing at the very last minute.! i hate waiting, even though i still wait. and we have yet to have a proper get-together for this week.

**i shall look on the bright side. we're going tomorrow! :)

Have the greatest day.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

TAPE PARADE.

*sometimes u'll never know how handy, ure stationary box could be!

ok. i finally went out wit my classmates w/o having any other disrupting plans preventing me. we went to arab strt. we strolled down passing buy fabric stores which provides cheap garments. we were too engrossed to start our level 1 asap as fashion students. now wer'e still in foundation level so we cant do much to place all our (fashion)designing skills on the table. so yeah, work hard now, get what we want later.

EARLIER, that day.

not much people came to class for 3D. and even for those who came didnt actually do much. we took photos! lots of it. hahhahhaa.

Have the greatest day.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

i have no plans today. ive done my internal drawing. and i think it looks nice. its raining outside. and i dont quite enjoy it if it rains during the day. it makes me feel weird and gloomy. i dont noe wad else to say but i enjoy typing. i dont noe why. it didnt turn out the way i thought it would be. and i feel very dissapointed. it was my mistake too. i should have wait.

Have the greatest day.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

I LOVE MY CLASSMATES. AND I ALSO LOVE MY BOYFRIEND soo very the much. HAHAHHAHAHOINK. today all of my close friends didnt attend xternal drawing class. but instead they went to watch movie!!! kurang ajaarrr... hahahaha. ok i had a choice but i didnt join them. i only brought 3 bucks. and wad am i suppose to do even if i followed them there. wait outside and dig my nose?!! or maybe i could put it in a film container and sell it for 10 bucks.! ok dats crap. the only person who could at least be ignorant if i ever plc it on their arm or shirt or cheek or wherever possible, is ORANGEMAN. yeah and i love smelling his arm pit too. i feel cosy if i place my head underneath it. the warmth make me feel like home. hahahaha. i noe ADEEB will be the only one affected badly after reading this. haha. and so the day was boring. at least he fetch me home from skool. the one thing which put colour on this colourless day.

ok, and i also help chacha make her vey first blog. which was also my very ferst day knowing how to make a blog BY MYSELF.. pathetic sak. hahahaha

then i went to sleep. coz pinggang dah sakit.
**while listening to LUDWIG VAN BEETHOVEN

Have the greatest day.

Monday, March 19, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

we sorta have a small fight this morning. yeah in the train!!! shit. i was drooling some tears and everyone was like looking at me. its about making him late for skool and couldnt attend PE lesson. yeah he was REALLY upset and furious. trust me. he was! and i got really annoyed by it. i couldnt stand it. i admit it was my fault too lah. coz i wanted to go to skool with him and i arrived a little later then the expected time. but its not like he's punctual or anything for his lessons. his been going to skool late even before this incident happen.... then it went on and on. until we both alight at outram park and serch for a toilet! and we COULDNT EVEN FIND ONE!!! hahahahahaa.... irritating nak mampos! we ended up using the SGH toilet. and we also had breakfast together there.

ok. then whn everythings back to normal. we quarelled again over some stoopid shit. i dont noe wad! oh yeah, i complained to him bout my back ache which has been going on for the last 2 weeks. and still have not been treated yet. he got angry. why? coz i dont wanna bother bout my health. and so he got so pissed off bcos of dat. its not like i dont want too.... i need money for skool and all. hahaha. blahblahblah! on our way to skool..................

i called him after a few mins upon arrival. told him that im goin to the polyclinic.
and so i really did.
and the dr.s there are all bloody fucked up also!

Have the greatest day.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

everybody should hate everybody.

joanna was on the other line when i was talking to orange on the phone at 9:30am. i had to replace someone on mc at wellness village spa (phagoda strt.) she's my managr. yeah i was happy coz i can work. in case u guys dont noe. i work as a receptionist there. a very relaxing job i must say. but it really bores me when i had to sit down there for hrs.! and too bad the line wasnt working and i didnt have to take in any more appointments except for those already written on dat list. wow!! dat made me even more bored and sleepy and restless.. and the best part was, NO MUSLIM KEDAI KOPI THERE!!!! and i ended up eating at mcdonalds. Chinatown is an intereting plc lah. the clothes are cheap. the people are nice. and basically the whole ambient of the place is so hectic but yet able to bring out colours during the night. i had to go back early coz i was friggin hungry, and i didnt want to spent anymore money on macdonalds. he was working too, so we didnt meet up on dat day.

so yeah, dat was my day. and i had fun being with myself.

Have the greatest day.